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I have officially lost my voice.

Baby Luna is having an allergic reaction to the termite tenting that was done a few weeks ago.

I miss my Pond for some reason even though she broke my heart.

For some reason people have been getting on my nerves lately. I'm not really sure why, they just manage to upset me. Silly apes. Sometimes I feel like trading in this Sonic Screwdriver for a gun, but that would be stupid.

I don't understand this world. Everything is so much more complicated than it should be. Everyone is out to get something out of someone. I'm so sick of it again.

But I don't really have a choice.

Random tid-bit for no reason.

"Shout, shout, let it all out

These are the things I can do without

C'mon, I'm talking to you

C'mon"

As I relive the past and think about those I've traveled through this life with, I realize that even though someone of them have hurt me, betrayed me, left me alone, etc, without them I wouldn't be where I am today.

I'm getting better, my anger isn't as bottled up and I can see things from different perspectives.

But in all honesty, I've never been able to tell those people how they really made me feel so I figure as part of the healing I'd sum it all up with a few lines of song followed with a statement.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah

What you doin' to me?

Yeah, yeah, yeah

What you want from me?

Yeah, yeah, yeah

What you doin' to me?

What you want from me?

You're just fucking killing me!"

"Psycho Killer

Qu'est-ce que c'est

Fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa far better

Run run run run run run run away"

"You say you love me, you love me again

But if you love me, where have you been?

You say you need me more than anyone else, well go to hell!

Where have you been?

No way! You wish! I don't need this!

What makes you think I'd ever want you again?

Yeah right! As if! I don't need this!

What makes you think I'd ever want you again?"

"I lay my head on the railroad tracks

And wait for the double E

But the Railroads don't run no more

Poor, poor pitiful me"

Ah, that's better.

Now then for the statement...

I have no anger or ill will towards any of you. You've all turned me into the person I am today. And to be quite honest I sorta like me. So for that I thank you. And for future reference, if you ever need anything, if there's anything I can do to help you....FUCK OFF.

Thoughts.....

I understand now that sometimes I have to be the bad guy in the short-term to be the good guy in the long.

What a mess

If anyone's wondering, the reason I've stopped doing things here is because both my laptops are gone and I no longer have a phone.
Things will be back as soon as possible though....I hope.

Lots of things...

Got laid up in the hospital on New Year's day. That wasn't much fun. The bartender at my old job is now an x-ray tech which sort of put me off as it reminded me of the joke "Why can't you see your exes when you're doing WELL?"

Not much to say

My, my, the clock in the sky is pounding away.
There's so much to say.
A face, a voice.
An overdub has no choice and it cannot rejoice.

Wanting to be, to hear and to see.

Crying to the sky.

Crescendoll's crescendo

I see her behind the glass. She is beautiful, like a skillfully crafted doll. I watch her dance, I watch her sing. She is amazing, like the first sunrise of summer or the first snowflake of winter.
I laugh at her jokes and smile when she plays. She is the thing that gives me hope, the thing that makes life bearable.

But it's a lie. I look around and see others who stare at her like me. They all think she's beautiful, that she's as amazing as the first sunrise of summer. But it's all a lie.

In truth she's nothing but a doll, a perverted thing to take our minds off of real life. Something to drag us down to her level. She is dirty, ugly, a creature that deserves our pity and nothing else. She was once someone's daughter, but now...now she is nothing.